Saturday, September 24, 2016
hi all,
Justin here.
how have your week been?
As for me, recess week is here and i guess i finally have a chance to take a deep breath...
School wise, its been all cool ( after all, i guess only her smile is the only thing that really rejuvenates me)
hm...i guess she don't really like me, i guess...
there goes my hopes of ever asking her out...
all i can do is observe her from a distance away ( damn...i sound like a stalker, but trust me, i ain't one...just love to see her smile i guess...)
oh well...other than that...
my heart starts screaming more frequently now as i start to fall back into the room filled with grasping darkness,waiting to engulf me...
it starting to hurt really badly and its really stressing me out mentally...not like a lunatic, of course...i meant it feels really painful and the hurt usually goes on for a long time...sigh....i know that in life,it goes up and down frequently...i guess i am just ranting like an idiot, sorry to those whom have read all this nonsensical rant i made...just trying to describe how i feel when my heart starts to scream...sorry...
anyways...you guys have a good week ahead of you...
~smile~
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Monday, September 19, 2016
Hey guys
its been 3 years since i last blogged. How have you been? As for me, its been 3 years of ups and downs. Lots of things happened on the way, from major set backs and feeling extreme anger, frustrations and stressed to finding new friends, having someone whose smile is as sweet as the goddess's fruits (just love the way she smile, though she most probably have no idea about it), and gaining new knowledge.
But i just hope i will be able to catch up as life moves on since i am barely surviving from all the workload weighing on me. I look forward to blogging again. I am sorry for disappearing without saying anything and i hope to see you guys soon. And remember, please smile upon leaving since smiles are important to me as they are the only thing that keeps me going since i am always easily depressed and always screaming out loud in my heart, waiting for someone to end my misery and my curse.
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Tuesday, October 22, 2013
hey guys....
long time no post here....
things been bad....
feel so bottled up inside and wanna scream it out loud...
haha.....
an outcast with a bottled up heart....
a heart with a nostalgic pain that i have felt for a long long time...
reminding me of the things i been through from young...
the feeling of loneliness...the emptiness of hurt in my heart...
the fear of bring alone....being alone for 18 years,,,
and yet it still have a painful effect to me...
i thought i was numb to such pain...that i was immune to such
a nightmare...but i was wrong...its still so painful....
it hurts so much...so much till even if i am a guy,i wanna cry
i feel so horrible...screaming inside like no tomorrow.....
will i ever find someone whom i can really call a true friend?...
sigh...
sorry if i sound selfish....and immature..
just feeling really depressed and yeah....
well anyways HOW ARE YOU GUYS?!!!
i hope you guys are doing better than me^^
once again
if i sound selfish and immature
my apologies
you all have a good day
i will be making another post soon if i got the chance
~smiles~
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Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Hi guys
been so long since i last updated my blog
haha
how long has it been?
erm...
6months? o.o
haha
no idea
anyways
hows life?
miss me?
haha
sorry just very bored now
in class and doing nothing
:P
hope things are going well for everyone of you
though i doubt anyone still come and read this blog
haha
this has become my secret haven where no one will ever know
^^
started playing Mstar recently
Mstar is a dancing game where you are suppose to press the keys in order within a time limit
something like AuditionSEA i guess
haha
quite fun to me
manage to get a small little cozy house to relax in as well as made some new friends
^^
anyways
i got to go soon
hope to see you again soon
will update it if i am free and if i never forget about the blog
haha
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Monday, January 28, 2013
Hi guys
haha
today i thought i will just create another post here on a monday
no idea why
ahahhaha
anyways
how are all of you today?
whats up guys?
haha
well.....i have no idea why
lots of people are dying during this month of the year,January
why does it have to be this way?
i have no idea
sigh......
now the current issue is about the issue that recently happened when 2 boys were dead in a crash in tampinese
i hope things will settle down soon
sigh.....
the stressful time has come as tests start to come in as well as interviews
hope they will go well and hope i can maintain in my studies
:)
well....at least i got sometime to relax too in between studies
like playing LoL and all
haha
well....
gonna stop here i guess
have fun
~smile~
~sloth~
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Thursday, January 24, 2013
hi guys
its been a while
how are you guys?
lol
had a great birthday yesterday
though there isnt any celebration
but i manage to receive 2 drawings from my "daughter" and my "mei"
haha
and they are really good at drawing
hahaha
at night nothing much happened
but my sis suprise me with pies which was bought from vivo city's pie paradise
SO DELICIOUS!!!!!>.<
and some other food my mom bought back taste great too
haha
so overall its a nice birthday i guess
alittle of normal life and a little of birthday life
oh and my classmates sang birthday song for me
so thanks guys
appreciate it
hahahah
officially 19 years old now
haha
2 more years to watch r21 shows
but this also means i am older by 1 year again
hahaha
anyways i got to go now
i shall do my video diary soon
:)
cya
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Thursday, January 17, 2013
hi guys
:)
been awhile
hows life everyone?
haha
nothing much really happened to me
only some incidents with bad luck
but also got some nice events that happen to me a few days ago
ahhaha
other than that,nothing much really happened to me
been so busy lately to play LoL so i usually play ai bots intermediate ver.
haha and it seems like a new ranked system is going to be implemented into the game
and i am looking forward to it
haha
but i guess i must train well first
:)
and exams are coming soon i guess
planning to focus more on exams and try to get the first win of the day
then i guess it will be ok for me
:)
cant wait to see todays match at 9pm where sgs.hyhy is gonna play
haha
the first game he scored a quadra kill in game
wonder when will he get a penta kill
in his interview,he said glxy.reina slaughtered him in game and since then
he want to pay her back the hospitality she has shown him
haha
i really wonder what will happen if they battle again
haha
looking forward to it
anyways
i gotta go now
i see you guys later
~smile~
~sloth~
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